74 posts tagged “gay”

I showed my cousin, who's also my alter-ego, a photo of a guy I recently got acquainted with and I have a crush on him.. Matthew.

All my friends definitely would like him too.

He broke up with his boyfriend, who's a little way older than he is and he told us what happened.. that his boyfriend's boyfriend (and Matthew's aware of it) sent him a text message telling him to stop getting in between them.

He's devastated, [ I feel ], and that's how we started talking.. it's weird because I've been with their circle of friends for quite sometime now but we never really talked.

Yeah, he's got this really nice features and small but cute body frame and THOSE eyes are just mesmerizing.. they're like a giraffe's with those long eyelashes with small eyelids.

However, since we really don't know each other that much.. I can say that my first impressions are a little off my standards.

He may not be well-off but he doesn't seem to be aware of the basic knowledge.

Next is that he cannot converse in English that well.. I'm not a grammar police and I can't say I'm any better, but I know that people can have that impression on him too.

Lastly, I'm not sure how hardworking he is with his dreams and ambitions.. as my first impression, I cannot think positively.

I asked my cousin what she thinks of him.. she then said, "Ano naman ang social status n'yan?"

..I cannot believe what she said... I showed her a photo, and she gave a mean reaction, how's that?!

I'm certain that he's a nice eye candy.. but it seems that he's not the "ideal" guy.

I hope I'm wrong.. but I'm thinking if his ex-bf's nice to him, I'm nicer.

I'm wondering, where did my spark go? Was it because my cousin's reaction opened the box I was still thinking of opening? and possible future flashed in front of me?

Could I make him say to me like the one from Repertory Philippines' I Love You Because's, "You're the one I will be better for.."

What am I thinking..?

How much I loved these when I was younger.

Can't remember, though, how I started liking them, but all I know is I really enjoyed watching them. so young yet so queer, aha! ^_^

1. Jem and the Holograms - this is fabulous, she's definitely a gay cartoon icon

2. She-ra Princess of Power - i loove her. ^_^

3. Care Bears - it's shown right now, Fab.

4. Rainbow Brite - HOW I WISH THEY SHOW THIS AGAIN. I remember my birthday cakes always had Rainbow Brite and Starlite on.. and lasted several years.

5. Lady Lovely Locks - i think this was a comic book, and how I fancy those hair with cute colorful animals crawling.. So So CUTE and I used to read this A LOT.

There's a new trainer at the gym. He's pretty cute, tall as I am and has a really nice body. He's straight.

He's from downsouth, Cebu City and he said he did a modelling stuff for Mossimo. Impressive.

We've been hanging out at the gym with the other guys for the past week, and I like that he's not the snob type, rather, he's very friendly and everybody's cool with him. I suppose, as the lead trainer there, that's part of the package.

Being the only queer there with a new batch of people, I thought I'd feel a little odd or other people would let me feel off, but with his help, I reign, yet again.

He hangs around often and helps me while I do my routine, he guides me too.

He engages me in small talks and sometimes with naughty stuff. He asks questions straight people would normally ask a gay guy like me.. relationships, physical preference, coming out, sexual things.. most of which had been asked to me, and were answered countless times.

Our discussions are pretty interesting, we share stories and stuff that are intellectual and funny at the same time.

He asks about guys I prefer, he points at random guys there and checks my standards.. I reply by doing the same but the other way around.

I said that I never liked muscular guys, or very tall guys.. they're nice eye candies, though.

But he was amazed when I said that I never liked straight guys after high school, that I prefer to be emotionally involved with someone who's gay and out.

I guess, his reaction was normal to me as I understand how some people think that gay guys would prefer "straight" guys as they thought gays think of themselves as ladies.. stereotyping stuff.

He compared it to sexual stuff that since gays do what I can, then I would prefer it on me, instead of doing it with a potato.

It then occurred to me, how I started liking gay guys.

Seriously, I can't recall.

I cannot remember how I transitioned to being firm on saying "I prefer guys who are not straight".

But I do know that television series plus reading, and getting involved further with researching about homosexuality influenced and taught me that it's fun for 2 gay guys to go together.

Back when I was starting to discover Malate, a popular local gay district, I never looked at how people were, but now, it's different, it seems that if there's a straight guy and a gay guy, I'd check out the gay one and think of the other as a random straight guy, no matter how cute they both could be.

I don't know, maybe the discussion with the new trainer at the gym triggered the state of my mind right now.

Now, say if I liked a straight guy and I liked a gay guy.. that's untraditional gender fluid, but what if I, or others liked a girl in addition to the mentioned situation and in a manner not only towards beauty, rather entirely as a whole. Where does it fall?

Ah.. the complexity of gender queerness!

Oh my god.

I had an embarrassing moment in front of my mom today.

It's about her rather unwise decision to be part of resolving an incident last night with a broken MERALCO post in our area which caused the loss of electricity.

Since there was no electricity, my friends invited me to their place across our house and they're having a simple drinking party as a birthday celebration.

I joined and got drunk.

While having lunch, I was having hang over from last night's party.

Probably, my dazed self started the confrontation.. I did it with the best intentions to remind my mom that what she did was dangerous.. blah, blah, blah..

Until, I brought up old issues of "tsismis" in the neighborhood that involve her and how she somehow took our names with it.

So, she defended herself by giving her argument of how I'm doing bad things at home and how I'm greasing the same with our name.

She said, "Yeah, how about you and your friends? You know, I saw condoms. What can you say about that?"

My jaw literally dropped.. I wasn't prepared with what she just said! Of course, she didn't see that.

I left the dining room smoothly. I was speechless.

But I immediately walked up to my room after I left her sight yet knowing that running away won't erase what I just heard from my mom.

How can I face my mom now?

I knew what she was talking about.. I cleaned the room with my trashy clothes and I threw the rubbers I used the other day.

I made sure that those were under the clothes, but I suppose that my mom checked what was in the bag since it was full of clothing.

My stupid mistake was I didn't throw it away immediately to the garbage but I just left it beside the garbage.

When I do that, I make sure that it's neatly done and the secret's well-kept but what happened with me and a cute guy in my room was a mess to my mom.

There's a positive note with what she said after, though.. "Do it elsewhere."

At least I know that she accepts the fact that I do "things" secretly.. but I can't afford being confronted.. especially, by my mom.

Maybe, I cannot bear thinking how my mom thinks about memories of me when I was a child, and now I engage myself to such things., and she discovers it in a not-so-smooth way.

How long will I feel uneasy in front of my mom? Gawd!

I wasn't able to attend last Saturday's Board Games at mik33's, they started early at 2pm. I got up late and because I did not sleep the whole night.

Yesterday, it's the annual Frolics / Pista ng Sto. Nino sa San Beda, and during this time of the year, Bedans gather and return to their alma mater to be part of a joyous celebration of religion, memories and great friendships.

Only few gems came to attend the celebration, but it's nice to meet a lot of faces from our younger past.

A 3-day school fair celebration that is highlighted with activities (rides, arcades, food, exhibits, competitions, et.al) and ends with a procession and a holy mass with millions worth of fireworks display.

It is always fun to go back in time and simple memories still give great laughter.

 

 

 

 

For this week, it was at my friend's place.

We met at Trinoma and had dinner and went to his house near Congressional Avenue.

 

Cadoo

and Taboo were the night's highlight... yeah, yeah.. kids' stuff.

But it's really fun.

 

 

I asked to be dropped off at my girl friend's birthday party after.

Was supposed to meet someone my girl friend set me up with, but I got word that his folks had him stay in Baguio City.

I just finished cleaning the house after a party.

There's this new hobby that my friends and I are doing: playing board games.

Today, I hosted a small gathering at my place, I called it "Garden Merienda Cena" which started at 3pm yesterday and ended at 4am.

We played Mahjong, Trivial Pursuit, Railroad, Clue and Monopoly Philippines.

We got snacks and drinks.. and man, we cannot consider counting calories for there was bounty of food.

It's really fun. So like Desperate Housewives. aha!

I went to Noel Flores' birthday party last night in QC. He's a professional make-up artist and he's really good.

He sent late invitations since it was spontaneous and I got dressed and went to his place.

My back was really hurt when I woke up that day..

 

But........

 

a good medical certificate will do. ^_^

It was on the 27th but I celebrated it on the 30th because that's when I had the time.

We had dinner at Pier One behind the SM Mall of Asia, then we played Bowling and we were so noisy! Aha ^_^

I met early with JR, who came home from Singapore and Reyson, who's still on vacation after his tiring chef work at a luxury cruise, while Maco and Prince were doing an MMFF marathon.

I invited a lot of people, but some did not reply but the others backed out the last minute for they were stuck in an engagement or just couldn't make it.. after all, invite many for I know not all would make it.

After dinner, we drove to Music 21 near the Heritage Hotel and continued the party there.

I asked to be dropped off at QC, for I'm having a drinking party at Pag-asa/Bago Bantay, QC.

I got home at 5 in the morning. I had a great one.

Christmas Party at Mikee's yesterday..

only few this year: Mikee, Herbert, Joma, Jiggs, JC, Dennis, me, Rik, Nelson, and Jaja.

We attended first the last Simbang Gabi at San Beda then continued the party.

Games, Stories, Gifts, Food, Showbiz. Party! ^_^